Here is the list of picture topics:Day 01: a photo of you today.
Day 02: a photo of yourself at least a year ago.
Day 03: a photo that makes you happy.
Day 04: a photo of a place you’d like to visit.
Day 05: a photo that makes you laugh.
Day 06: a photo of someone you love.
Day 07: a photo of something you stand for.
Day 08: a photo of something you enjoy doing.
Day 09: a photo of yourself when you were a baby.
Day 10: any photo you like for any reason.
Day 11: a photo of a night you loved.
Day 12: a photo of when you were happy.
Day 13: a photo of one of your favorite movies.
Day 14: a photo of your best friend (s)
Day 15: a photo of you and a family member
Day 16: a photo from your childhood
Day 17: a photo of something that has changed your life
Day 18: a photo of your town.
Day 19: a photo that makes you laugh.
Day 20: a photo of something you ate today.
Day 21: a photo of somebody you find attractive.
Day 22: a photo that you associate a good memory with.
Day 23: a photo of something you want to do someday.
Day 24: a photo of what you want to be when you grow up.
Day 25: a photo that inspires you.
Day 26: a photo of your favorite subject in school.
Day 27: a photo of something you are looking forward to.
Day 28: a photo of something/somebody that made your day.
Day 29: a photo of your favorite person from history.
Day 30: a photo you find beautiful.
So let’s get started right now, shall we?!Day 01: a photo of you today. ~ So this was me just a few weeks ago. I picked this particular picture as I feel that the older I get the more comfortable in myself I am getting and the easier it is for me to be ME and express myself however I want. While I am still not comfortable in many situations, mainly those with other people...I know better now than ever before who I am as a person and I am very happy with that person around family and close friends, even if they see me like this! It may be taking awhile, but at the age of 30 I am closer than ever to not only finding happiness with myself, but being comfortable sharing that with others.
Day 02: a photo of yourself at least a year ago. ~ So about a year and a half ago this was me. I had avoided getting my picture taken for awhile and this was the first time I had really seen myself in a picture in some time, and I did not like what I saw. It didn't look anything like who I saw myself as. I hated everything about this picture because in my mind that WASN'T me. How did this happen? How did I let myself get this way? This was such a low point and seeing that picture made me face what I had been trying to avoid for awhile, that I needed to make a change and get healthy. I am getting there as this is no longer me and I am getting closer to where I want to be.
This was me at my cousins wedding (2003/2004 I think). I was happy here. This is me. Smiling, happy, the way I see myself in my head. I felt good about myself here. I was comfortable with my weight, thought I looked great in my dress, loved my hair (girls we know that is important), and just at this moment felt really beautiful. The picture was nothing fancy, nothing special - it just was me. Maybe call it vanity, but I think we all have some pictures like this where we just feel beautiful and comfortable and happy....and this was one of mine. I liked myself here and that is what matters.
This was me in 2002. The reason I posted this as well was so you can see a progression. I see this picture and I have mixed feelings. Just like the picture taken 1 1/2 years ago where I don't like the way I look because it doesn't feel like me, I sorta feel the same here. At this point in my life I was confused and had no confidence. This was probably the thinnest I ever was (too thin perhaps), but I never saw that. Ever. At the time I saw myself as an overweight and ugly person. I was not happy with who I was and even though I would wear certain clothes out to get attention because I could, that really wasn't what I wanted....I had no idea what I wanted or who I was. I looked at myself and didn't recognize who I was. Most likely, because from 1999 - 2001 I had lost about 80 pounds (70 of that in 1 year). My mind just never caught up with how fast I was losing weight and in turn it blurred my reality of how I looked at myself. For so long I saw myself one way and when you lose weight quickly and can be hard to change the way you think. I was just as worried here in this picture about people seeing me and thinking I was fat as I do now a lot, LOT heavier than here. So though in retrospect I should have loved the way I looked in this picture, I really just don't see ME.
Dang, this is like therapy! More to come.....