(Insert EVERY possible emotion you can think of here.)
Only 10 weeks left. WOW. Before I know it, it will be 10 DAYS!
It really feels like a countdown now. Up until this point I have been counting up, waiting to get closer and closer to the 40 weeks. But as soon as I got to 30 weeks my mindframe switched and now it is a "wait to meet baby countdown" in my head and it is not that I am 30 weeks but rather that I only have 10 weeks left.
It is crazy.
"Your baby's about 16 - 17 inches long now, and he weighs 3 pounds (like a head of cabbage). A pint and a half of amniotic fluid surrounds him, but that volume will decrease as he gets bigger and takes up more room in your uterus. His eyesight continues to develop, though it's not very keen; even after he's born, he'll keep his eyes closed for a good part of the day. Baby is growing plumper and beginning to control its own body temperature. Eyebrows and eyelashes are fully developed, and hair on the head is getting thicker. Head and body are now proportioned like a newborn's. Hands are now fully formed and fingernails are growing.
Mom-to-be: Your uterus is about four inches above your navel, and it's hard to believe you still have about 10 weeks to go as baby continues to push on your ribs. You may be feeling more discomfort in your pelvis and abdomen. You'll probably be gaining about a pound a week."
How are you feeling?
Excited, anxious, nervous, worried, happy....seriously at any given time during the day I could feel a different emotion. But the emotion that never changes is contentment. I am truly at ease with where I am and with this pregnancy. Sure, I am scared shitless with the thought of being someones mommy and all the natural worries that come with that responsibility, but I am also perfectly at ease with entering this new phase in our life.
How is Henry?
Awesome and kicking up a storm! This boy is a mover and I am loving it!! I don't think I will ever get use to this feeling. He will kick me a certain way and I just giggle. We have our "special time" after work when I come home and have comfy clothes on and sit on the couch and he just moves and moves. I will call his name and tickle my stomach and he goes crazy for about 45 minutes. I love it so much. He is also kicking hard, to the point that sometimes it startles me. Even Terry, who comes to bed a few hours after me, was startled when Henry gave him a fist bump. Terry likes to feel my belly when he comes to bed and said the baby punched him so hard that it moved his hand up, forcefully. Awesome. And the strangest feeling is when he moves and you can just slowly feel him or a body part move across the inside of your stomach (or as Terry calls it my giant incubater...as it no longer looks like a belly). What an incredibly weird feeling that is.
I bought this dress for my shower. (Yes, I am in the dressing room, I had to send pics to my mom to get a second opinion!)
Don't know if it will support my chest, but it is trying!!
Had to show off the belly :)
I really like the back. P.S. My dress is to the floor, this one is way too short.
(Check it out HERE from Target)
I don't normally do dresses, it just isn't my thang. Which made it SO hard finding something I liked, that FIT, was comfortable, and didn't just look like a giant sack on me. I found this dress and LOVE it. It is lightweight, comfortable, and even though I usually avoid all patterns - this one for some reason works. I have a feeling I will be wearing this dress pretty much ALL August.
This is charlie this weekend sleeping with Henry. Henry kept kicking him, which you could tell because charlie's body would move, but Charlie wasn't phased. Glad they are already getting along!
I must say that through this entire pregnancy experience and all the ups and downs, the one thing that makes me the most emotional is people’s kindness and generosity. I don’t think I will ever get used to it.
I have had SO many people who have taken time out of their lives to give me much needed and appreciated advice, have offered up their time in helping to get ready for the baby, and have given us baby items that they no longer use. It is truly overwhelming, but in the good way. The way that makes you realize that you have surrounded yourself with true friends and have absolutely amazing family. The way that makes you realize how much you are loved. And in a way that makes you realize how much your child is and will be loved. THAT in and of itself means so much to me.
Yes, those simple gestures and acts of kindness, even if they seem small to the people showing them, really mean so much more to me….to us....because of the generosity, love and kindness associated with those gestures.
I cried happy tears this weekend thinking of the kindness of family & friends and thinking how much this child will be loved and how many people in our life care for the family T & I are expanding. I truly feel blessed having so many wonderful and compassionate people in our life and I know our son will be surrounded by amazing people who love him. And honestly, what more can you as a parent ask for except knowing that no matter what happens during this journey your child will always feel loved.
Even on this blog, the kind words and encouragement that have come over the last few months have been a constant support and mean so much to me. You can’t help sometimes to feel down and wonder if you can do this…be someone’s parent….but I also know that have a wonderful support system which makes this change so much easier.
Thank you so much for all your kindness.